Thursday, Sept. 22, 2005 @ 5:15 p.m.
i have moved...
http://jlpiglet.blogspot.com
meeting Mr Zhou Gong ..
Thursday, Sept. 22, 2005 @ 12:09 a.m.
hmmm..i can't load pixs up onto imagestation le..n i dun like photobucket..cause everything to go out of alignment...hmm...should i still stick to diaryland? or move on to blogger?? hmm..shall see..right now..i know i'm heading to dreamland...zZzZzZ
haf a "giant" spirit man..=p
Thursday, Sept. 15, 2005 @ 5:20 p.m.
had a great wk in sch so far...Ps Setfan is sharing this wk..he is veri animated..haha..n love his different facial expressions he gives in class..hee..but on top of all these...i caught something in the spirit..
like wat he shared todae...that your spirit is your king, your soul is your servant and your body is your slave...n we must strengthen our spirit...b'coz tat is where God dwells in you..n tat is where God speaks to you...all believers ought to haf a "giant" spirit..but many christians have it the other way round...we haf a "giant" body and a "dwarf" spirit instead...our body is our king instead...we are subjected to our flesh..when it cries out tired!!...we will head to bed..etc...but hey...tat shouldn't be the way..we should be subjected to our spirit instead...if our body cries out tired!!...n our spirit man cries out pray!!..we need n ought to choose the latter...let's grow n strengthen our spiritman..how? by meditating on the word of God...read it and meditate on it...even at times when u dun understand it..b'coz it's gd for you...juz like taking vitamins..u do not understand it..all u know it's good for u...therefore u take it..n secondly..by worshipping in the spirit...which also means..we need to worship more in the spirit..spend more time in God's presence..n DON'T rush through ya daily devotions...many times God wants to speak to you..but b4 he can even open His mouth..u are out of his presence..linger around..like joshua..
yep..so tat is part of wat i learn tdy..n part of wat i learn in SOT...does tat answers ya question ahsan? hee...anyway...gonna start work soon...gonna work at a push cart at suntec..so if u are around there..pls come n look for me wor..=p will be working on mondaes n saturdaes..dia should know where..lol...
am i looking forward to work?? hmm..i have no idea..haha..half saes yes n the other half saes no..lol..many says i shouldn't take up this job offer..however i decided to take it up...why? simple reason...i'm not born in a silver spoon family...lol...n i need finances..my savings running real low...hee..n of course i need it to finance my coaching course..my diving trip next yr..my building fund pledge..n of course..my own survival..yep...so...work here i come...=p
well..made a few mistakes over the past few wks..man..it was awful...blame it on my carelessness n unfaithfulness..but i'm human..there is no perfect person here on earth..all i can do..is repent..move on.. n be more meticulous over certain things in future..was rather attcked in my mind over it..haha..but thank God it's over..=p
haf a feeling a storm is approaching...haha..why n how? i dunno..juz haf tis feeling..but hey..whose life is without storm? haha..i know mine life is a stormy one..coz God didn't promise a smooth sailing life..but i'm ready to face it wif my God...coz he promise me victories over the storms..=p i dun wan to be caught unaware..haha..safety belt buckled..winter clothes on me..all ready..lol...nonsense...
k..tat's all for now...heading back to my assignment...till the next entry..take care..=p
search..rescue..destroy..
Friday, Sept. 09, 2005 @ 12:29 a.m.
Day after tml was great...the best part was to see many young ppl giving their lives to Jesus...man..God is awesome...God is indeed moving...
well..was rather encourage...when i see members inviting their friends..realli saw that some of them went all the way out..hey..keep it tat way guys...=p let's nt give token effort...but let's keep searching...till we get the lost...harvest is full..but laborers are few...let's be the laborers..=p
well...my 3 papers are over..but now i have 3 assignments on hand...n all 3 gt to be completed in 2 wks time..lol..how am i gonna do it? no idea? juz do it ba..hee..
k...my computer is starting to get cranky...shall blog again...nitezz
You are the HOPE that leads me on ..
Monday, Aug. 22, 2005 @ 4:51 p.m.
was at overnite prayer mtg yesterdae or rather this morning...n a song that we sang truely touch my heart n minister to me..
YOU ARE THE PEACE
THAT GUARDS MY HEART
MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS
YOU ARE THE HOPE
THAT LEADS ME ON
AND BRINGS ME TO MY KNEES
FOR THERE I FIND YOU WAITING
AND THERE I FIND RELEASE
SO WITH ALL MY HEART I'LL WORSHIP
AND UNTO YOU I SING
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE WORSHIP AND ADORE YOU
FATHER WE LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE LOVE YOU
AND WE WORSHIP YOU THIS DAY
ever wonder wat keeps u on each dae?? mine is the hope i haf in God...i place my hope in Him fully..He is the hope that leads me on..
pix dae
Thursday, Aug. 18, 2005 @ 5:09 p.m.
took graduation pix todae...n took pixs wif my team mates...=p
14-8-05
Monday, Aug. 15, 2005 @ 11:32 p.m.
i need to laugh..realli laugh..it has been a long long time since i last haf a hearty laugh wif my peepz..
i dun wan to come to a pt where i lose my joy in all tat i'm doing...i can't afford to lose the joy...JOY of the LORD is my STRENGTH...how can i live a dae without the joy of the Lord?
was reminded of the vision ..the things spoken over me during the 2 wks of pst mike..clueless how isit gonna happen...God truely knows how i'm feeling n wat i'm going through..but how am i gonna overcome it? with him...i know..but how? how is he gonna work? i have no idea..delay is nt denial..i'm waiting upon the Lord...He has n will show up...
ongoing ..
Sunday, Aug. 14, 2005 @ 12:38 a.m.
was reading through my friends blogs...n to my surprise..or shock rather...found out that one of them is nt doing well spiritually..n he is a SOT grad...was reminded once again...that coming to SOT doesnt make me more spiritual..coming to SOT no doubt will increase my head knowledge..but it does nt gurantee tat i won't fall away from God for the rest of my life...it's one thing to know and another thing to apply what we know into our life..
was toking to s.x earlier..agree wif wat she mention..tat this arise n build is rather different..nt onli are we stretch in the area of our finances..but in other areas such as emotions..mind..etc..we face wif lots of temptations too...it's onli the begining...n so much has happen..wonder how the end will be...but i know one thing for sure...the end is gonna be much better then the begining...
folks...guard ya heart n mind..u never know wat thots or ideas will come to u..when u are hit..u gt to be strong now...NOW is the hour to arise...
ooo...i did something crazy todae...i cycle all the way to serene's place to get the laptop from her..hee..was stuck at a few junctions...coz i din dare to cycle on the busy road...so i was looking for pavement to cycle on all along..hee..the most tiring part was at the flyover...there was no linkage...had two options den...cycle on the busy road...or carry my bike up a long flight of stairs in order to stay on the pavement...gutless me chose the latter..thank God my bike wasn't that heavy...=p
did i mention tat i quit my job already? hee..yep...i'm free now..hee..nah..nt gonna shake leg for long...looking for job now...so shaking as much as i can b4 i dun get the chance to do so anymore..hee...
was toking to my sch mate...man..time flies...left wif abt 3 more mths in sch b4 i graduate from SOT..hee..so fast ar..goann miss SOT for sure...the P&W every morning especailly..it's realli tat short 20 mins tat charge me up everydae...argh...shall stop all my aww-ing..there will be a time for that..but nt now..hee
if nothing goes wrong..i'm gonna go SIM in aug next yr...from jan all the way to june i'm gonna work..n in july..it's gonna be a traveling mth for me..hopefully..it also depends on my other commitments..a MUST do thing is to get my diving license..been wanting to learn diving since dunno when...tat's a must achieve in july06..other then tat...it all depends on how much time i haf n how much money do i haf left...b4 i decide on other destinations to travel to..hee...tat's the plan for now..but anything can happen n this plan may change..anyway...nothing is constant except for change...hee..
k...enough of blahing...time to head to bed...take care folks..=p
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Wednesday, Aug. 03, 2005 @ 6:42 p.m.
Happy Birthday FAIRFIELD!!
once again...4 aug is approaching soon..haha..it's juz tml..hee..nearly forgot abt founder's day till i check my friendster ..my friends are gathering ppl to form tables for the dinner...it's too costly..hee..especially now..hee..
however it led me to think abt those daes..hee..oh man..emotional me is coming back again..hee..i miss those daes..haha..i miss seeing yellow n blue no matter where i go..hee..i miss tat colour combi..hee..
remembered something someone said(can't remember who isit..justin maybe?)..many things may change..we all will move on..but there is something different among the fairsians..both ex and current..tat is the bonding we haf..the family feeling we haf among one another..tat will never change..so true ar..never feel weird hanging out wif my sec sch mates...no matter how long we din meet..haha..
my sec sch mates are a grp of peeps whom i treasure dearly..those 4 yrs were the most memorable daes in my studying days..doubt my uni days will replace those 4 yrs ba...
short updates..=p
Saturday, Jul. 30, 2005 @ 10:26 a.m.
had an awesome wk in sch...
great cgm...
crossroad once again...i need to make some wise decisions soon...
W263 ..=p
Saturday, Jul. 23, 2005 @ 12:03 a.m.
had cg todae..was good..although some members did nt turn up..but i enjoyed my time with those tat turn up..took some silly pixs at the coffee shop n jt took lots of pixs on a black cat...eeekks..but he deleted quite a number of them too..due to the blurness..hee
w263..a cg which i took over in nov..gave birth to w311..taken care by sis MY n ML now..currently w263 consist of a group of youths whom i love dearly..a group of friends whom i thank God for..they brighten up my dae..
true that we are made up of different personalities..but yet..love of God binds us together..many of them are still veri young..but i love their child like faith..n tat is wat we need in every single person's life..regardless of age..we need child like faith..pastor once shared that young ppl dun realli think much b4 they do something..tat explains why many said tat young ppl are often reckless..tat explains the kind of boldness they have in them too..n likewise in w263..i see that boldness...tat potential in everyone of them..it's a matter of them releasing tat potential..tapping into God's presence n strength...i'm determine...to help them in this walk..to realize their own potential..n destiny..i can't walk the walk for them..but i can show them the path..it's a matter of their choice..
it's true tat at times all sort of problems will surface as an individual as a cg..but yet..we gt to realize this..tat there's no perfect place in this world..no where n no one is perfect...until jesus returns..problems will still bound to surface..b'coz we live in a broken down world..hence.. there's no such thing as perfect cg or perfect friends...hee...thus i'm contended wif the seeds that are in my hands now...knowing that they haf the full potential n will fulfill their destiny n purpose..if they choose to..
man..i juz love w263..as a cg..we are gonna do great n mighty exploits together...we are gonna bring in the lost together..we are gonna glorify God n shame the devil..man..great n exciting daes ahead..=p press on..=p
thots after thots..
Monday, Jul. 18, 2005 @ 3:31 p.m.
wat the purpose of ya existance? i'm surprise at the number of ppl finding/searching for their purpose..however..some when their purpose is shown to them..they refuse to accept..refuse to be committed to tat purpose..wat's the pt in searching for something n at the end of the dae refuse to accept e fact?
the person who truely knows e purpose of ya existance is ya maker..is juz like a product..onli the manufacturer knows the fullest potential n the true/actual purpose behind the creation of a certain product..so..who do u believe is ya maker?? ya parents?? true..my parents "created" me in tat sense...but surely there is someone in the high places who plan all these..who brought my parents together n even created my parents n stuff..onli tat person in the high place knows my true purpose n destiny..no one else but Him..
why am i typing these?? coz there are some questions in my mind tat i can't find the answers to it..thus all those thots causes all the above thots..hee..shall be back again when i haf more thots..ciaoz..
lazy mode..
Monday, Jul. 11, 2005 @ 9:49 p.m.
wow...has been ages since i last update...there's lots to blog..but too lazy to use my brain juice to type it out into words..lol..so i shall keep it to myself..hee..
shall blog again when i'm nt tat lazy..hee..meanwhile..take care folks..
dun disrupt my walk wif Him..
emerge 2005
Monday, Jun. 13, 2005 @ 11:38 p.m.
emerge was awesome..during one of the nights Pastor sang this song:
ONCE I HAVE TURN MY FACE FROM THEE
YET YOU SOUGHT ME AND YOU CLEANSED ME
MADE ME WHOLE AGAIN
JESUS MY SAVIOR
MY BELOVED AND FRIEND
YOUR PRAISES I BRING
FROM MY HEART I SING
DRAW ME, O DRAW ME AWAY
MESSIAH TODAY
TO YOUR PRESENCE TO STAY
O JESUS NOW CHANGE ME
AND MOULD ME THAT I CAN BE
EVERMORE TRUE TO THEE
YOU ARE THE SHEPHERD OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME TO YOUR CHAMBER
MY MASTER AND KING
YOU LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS
AND GAVE ME YOUR WORD
THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME
NOR NO EVER WILL LEAVE ME
was reminded once again of His faithfulness...the daes whereby i left church...when i turn my face away from Him..He did not let me go..He never forsake me..nt a single dae..tis emerge conference is so different...at least for me..the theme of the conference is still abt revival...but yet..it's also a time whereby i return into God's presence..i miss His presence..a time whereby i renew my love n committment to Him...
tis walk is nt easy at all..who saes being a Christian is easy..no way..haha..but i'm willing...willing to carry the cross..things may happen n we may be tempted to drop the cross quit the race..saw many ppl around me quitting the race..am praying that i won't..i wan to serve Him as long as i can..even when it's inconvenient...
even at this moment..things are nt going the way tat i thot it may be..it's so hard to believe tat God can n will come through for me..but i'm still believing..coz He has already proven Himself to be faithful..thus he will surely nt forsake me...i serve a GREAT GOD...=p
my cg wrapped up the whole emerge conference by treating ourselves to a gd meal on sundae..hee..we went seoul garden..to compensate for all the missed meals we went through due to the queuing up for the conference..hee..had fun..=p
these sum up my b'dae
Sunday, Jun. 05, 2005 @ 11:43 p.m.
i'm back..
Sunday, Jun. 05, 2005 @ 10:54 p.m.
finally...submitted my assignment..haha..catching up on my sleep now..lol..next wk is EMERGE!!..tat will be the highlight of the wk..n tat is gonna take up the whole of next wk..hee..can't wait for it..i love emgerge..it was during last yr emerge when my dreams and visions got revived once again..haha..can never forget tat encounter..indeed one touch from heaven can change a person's life..haha..guys..let's get ready for emerge..believe that God is gonna spark forth a personal revival within the youth once again..
however...it's back to mugging after emerge..my exams are coming up..straight after my holidaes..hee..gonna study wif my jc members..anyway..putting tat aside...had a great 21st b'dae..one of the best presents i gt was a ppt presentation done by my ex cg mates..was surprise to see so many of my pixs taken long time ago..haha..it brought back fond memories though..haha..indeed we have gone through quite abit together..those gd n bad times..haha..tks pals..=p
k..enough of blogging..i'm still in my sleepy mode..shall be back here after the emerge...
oya..meeting mandy. xin n shuz tml..can't wait to see the gals once again..lol...!!..=p
rushing rushing rushing..
Friday, May. 20, 2005 @ 12:49 a.m.
last wk was awesome..had a great time in Ps Phil conference n services..there's so much to share abt the conference..but i can't do it now..rushing my assignments..shall update again when i'm done wif all those stuff..
meanwhile ..take care folks..
p/s: pls pray tat i will be able to finish up my assignments...n nt lose focus...tks..=p
shuz's birthdae..
Monday, May. 02, 2005 @ 5:43 p.m.
the b'dae gal wif her b'dae cake..=p
xin, shuz n me..it's a pity mandy couldn't make it..
all of us..=p
awesome wkend
Monday, May. 02, 2005 @ 10:29 a.m.
slept frm 8pm yesterdae all the way to tis morning..haha..i feel gd...haha...tat is to compensate for my 2 slpless nite..haha..
fridae i went for overnite prayer mtg..it was great...felt something broke forth after tat nite's prayer mtg..nt in the natural..but in the spiritual realm...things are happening...soon...man..i'm excited..=p
caught some slp n went to meet mandy in town..it was so crowded!!..haha..i kept complaining to mandy n she kept reminding me tat it's a saturdae...haha..anyway..went to search for shuhui's present..hee..gt her a handbag at the end..went over to her party thereafter...i din know where the place was till i reached..haha..it was at a condo tat i love..a place i kept looking at everytime i'm having my training den...hha..finally i step in..hee..well..we ate n played through tat nite...hee..
n i'm amazed tat i could go through 2 services on sundae..haha..however...service was great..presence of God was so tangible..felt so refresh once again...n somethings tat He spoke to me ties in so well wif wat i prayed for on fridae nite..man..i'm realli excited abt the things tat are happening ahead...=p
enough of fun..now it's time to get some work done...ciaoz..=p
rejoice..happy..joyful..=p
Saturday, Apr. 23, 2005 @ 12:11 a.m.
tis wk has been a long wk..started my work as a student care teacher..it's rather fun..see a different mixture of kids..learn something tis wk..tat kids they haf mood swings too..haha..one moment they can be super happy n keep toking to u n e next moment they can ignore u totally..haha..there's so much more to learn abt them..=p
besides work..tis wk we had live recording too..CHC coming out wif our first album in 5yrs..believe tat it's gonna be gd..hee..could sense it as we were doing the recording..it was tiring..but it was a great experience..=p
on top of these..classes were as usual..haha..hmm..was struggling through at some pts of the class..hee..it's realli a battle between ya mind n ya body n ...argh..everything...it's like ya eyes juz refuses to obey u n choose to close..haha..n suddenly ya mind turn into a pentium 1 computer...super laggy...things tat goes in need abt 1 min to register...so u can image how lag i was..haha..but nevertheless..i gt something out of it..JOY is a fruit of the spirit..just like love..faithfulness etc..we make a choice...a decision to love ppl around us...thus..it's the same wif JOY..we choose to be happy n joyful..we do nt let the feeling in us determine if todae is a joyful dae..we make a decision to be happy..your joy is not base on circumstances..your joy is in the Lord..n nt in ya circumstances..(Zeph 3:15)haha...recently was asking God things concerning joy..rejoicing.. etc ..n he answered it in class..haha..God is so awesome..so friends..choose to stay JOYFUL..!!..=p keep smiling..=p
oya..took a number of pixs too..haha..here are some..
live recording-rainbow colours..
live recording-the pink hair..
miss them..
SOT mates..
taking pixs to peak ourselves up..hee..
one quick shot b4 we start class again..=p
k..too many to upload..go view it at my albums..gt to slp now..take care peepz..=p stay JOYFUL!!..=p
you know who you are
Saturday, Apr. 16, 2005 @ 10:04 p.m.
wat can i do or sae...if u refuse to open up? if u refuse to let go n let God intervene? no pt in confronting..no pt in toking to you anymore..done tat..been there..taken the pix..all you will do is juz to deny it again n like a goat...you refuse to budge due to ya stubbornness..it's so obvious tat there's something bothering you...something is nt right in your life..but u juz refuse to open it up..nt even to God..you rather hide it and escape from it and live in a world of denial..or maybe you know it..but u refuse to do anything ..you know wat u should do..but u rather choose death then life...den there's seriously nothink else i can sae or do..other than keeping you in my prayers..angry? nope..disappointed?? yes i am..utterly..
God..help him i pray..
keep running..
Saturday, Apr. 16, 2005 @ 12:23 a.m.
stop sliding away...slide back my friends...it hurts me when i see ppl who has tasted the goodness of God decides to slide away...why would ppl wan to run away frm God's goodness n blessing?? Jus b'coz they haf tasted some temp pleasure n goodness that the world offer? Jus b'coz their school work load increase? Jus because they face some pressure n presecution? Man..who dun?? who dun face temptations? who dun face presecutions? who dun face stress? who dun go through hard times?? Everyone does!! tat person is a saint or something if he or she dun...the difference lies in how u handle it my friends..how u face it..how u deal wif it..the world has their way of handling it..us as christians haf the word of God to help us.."He who is in me is greater than him who is of tis world.." Nothing is too big for my God to handle...stand on the promises of God n he will see u through..he allows trails for all of us..coz through these it will train n mould us...it is for our character benefit...he is more concern wif our character than comfort..remember? tat partly explains why God din promise us a smooth sailing life when we receive Christ into our life..and reminder...we are partakers of God's divine nature..which means we nt onli partakers of His blessings..we partakers of His long sufferings too..be someone who never saes die...dun give up..dun let go..!! cling on tight to the promises of God..!! Boss always saes tis..watever may happen in your life...hang in there wif God...you will conquer it wif God..but yet...up to date..at least 3 haf given up the fight or rather..abt to give up..hey..FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT OF FAITH!!..i wish i could fight for you..but i can't..all..in a warfare..every soldier has their own weapon n they are expected to fight...they may be alone physically..but they know tat their buddies are somewhere near them..fighting along side..likewise..we are a army for christ too.. in a spiritual warfare too..you gt to fight on your own..but hey..we are fighting along side..come on..hold on tight n keep fighting..run finish the race..
one more
Friday, Apr. 15, 2005 @ 1:05 a.m.
one more b4 i offically try to get into ZzZ land..
W263..mixture of both b4 n after we multiply..
i need to slp..
Friday, Apr. 15, 2005 @ 12:22 a.m.
suppose to be in bed by now..but i can't get to slp...my head is aching since morning...n the pain juz becomes so unbearable when i rest on my bed...weird ar? haha...i wan to slp..n i need to slp..!!
did 2 collages todae..haha..when my head was spinning like nutz earlier in the dae..i needed to do something to distract myself..the black box couldn't help much..i couldn't follow the story plot at all..i needed something tat requires the minimum concentratation..so..here i am..ending up wif 2 collage due to my headache..haha..throwing pixs together..
my fairfield daes
daes in NYP..
JJ..
Sunday, Apr. 10, 2005 @ 7:54 p.m.
listening to JJ's album...peg blessed me wif it...heee....tks gal!..=p
overnite prayer mtg..
Saturday, Apr. 09, 2005 @ 1:16 p.m.
had overnite prayer mtg last nite..had a great time praying...His presence was awesome...
but other den tat..yesterdae was the first time i miss my stop while coming home frm overnite prayer mtg..overslept..took the bus all the way to clementi interchange...n tat's nt all...on my way back..i din expect the journey to be tat fast..once again i slept n by the time i woke up..i'm at jurong west area once again..aiyoyoyo...yesterdae..or rather..tis morning..i'm like touring around jurong area on bus 99...think i din take the same bus ba..was too sleepy to notice..if i did...den the bus driver must haf thot tat i'm a suku gal or something...so early taking bus ride back n forth...gonna set alarm clock from now on if i'm gonna slp on the bus..hopefully it helps...lol
thots..
Saturday, Apr. 02, 2005 @ 3:43 p.m.
a thot jus came to me..
was looking through at the list of nicks on my msn list..saw a few nicks tat saes.." live life to the fullest..coz it's fragile.." etc etc..
will we actually live life to the fullest?? maybe for a few mths..we mean wat we sae...but as time goes by..we gt tired of it n forgot abt tat nick we put on the msn ..forgot all that has happen tat cause us to put that nick..n life is back to the same..no change..den wat's the pt? what causes a real change in you n me? experience? an unforgetable event? your conviction on something?
wat causes a change in my life yrs back?? that cause me to live my life fully for Jesus...was an experience n encounter i never forget..through tat it strengthened my belief n faith in Christ..some asked me b4..how will u feel and what will u do if one dae when u pass on n realize tat in this world there's no God? hahah..frankly speaking..i never thot of tat..tat experience n encounter was so real till an extend it casts out all doubts in me...never will i doubt tat the God tat i serve dun exist..he exists n i know tat i will meet him one day..
haha...why would i end up wif such an entry? no idea too..haha...anyway..had two warnings todae...1st was a warning via sms frm dearest shuhui..a warning to organize a meet up..kk..coming up wif one soon k?? one b4 ya b'dae k? =p
next warning was frm dia babe...via her blog..eee..picturing myself dangling on bukit timah hill...yikes!! ...kk..promise to try to make it for the next meet up k? =p
k...back to my work..hmm..rephrase..my dad's work...helping him to type some stuff...ciaoz...
zzzzzZZZZZZZZZ
Thursday, Mar. 31, 2005 @ 11:00 p.m.
wasted some time listening to some crap msg...wonder why ppl buy tat msg..it's just so nonsense..crazy grace..they need to see n hear the truth...
anyway...had mock cg todae..took preaching..n as usual..same mistakes again...my "you know" surface again..haizz..i haf to overcome the "you know" part..
my physical body is so rebellious nowadaes..it's so hard to discipline tis body of mine..argh!! it's time to take up disciplinary actions..hmmmmm
having disconnected thots currently..thus i'm jus typing watever that comes my mind..
learn a new game during mock cg todae..hee..gonna play tml for cg..hee..it's a simple game...but pretty fun..at least to me..
having tuition tml..be meeting damien boy..hee..notti..but smart boy..acting as a chief head in sch...aiyoyo...kids nowadaes..hee..among all the kids ..he is the cutest boi..hee..next will be zhiwei..hee..i love his eyes..big round eyes...but he's starting to climb over my head...hmph..i gt to do something next wk..hee..gt to take some pixs wif them one of these daes..hee..
k..enough of wasting time...it's time to zZzZzZzZz...
easter wkend..
Sunday, Mar. 27, 2005 @ 7:16 p.m.
easter was great!!.. production was great..tis has been one of the best drama i haf seen so far...
but tis year easter service was diff not onli b'cz of the drama..pastor kong prayed for the sick and many receive their miracles...one of them was a small boy..he has a tumour in his head and had to undergo a few operations..coz of tat his ears are deaf..but he gt his healing yesterdae during one of the services...he could hear again...man...tis is so touching..indeed it shows how much God loves the little children..
saw my cousin at the easter service...was surprise when i saw her there..coz heard frm my mum that she is a strong buddhist..n she won't convert coz of her mum..but guess God moves in ways we can never comprehend...haha..glad to know tat she is in church..n to my surprise..she knows meifeng..haha..wat a small small world we live in..haa...my cousin grew prettier..she slim down alot..time to ask her for her secret recipe..=p
took some pixs wif my cg too..
i miss kallang river..
abuse..
playing musical chair after service..=p
running the race..
Thursday, Mar. 24, 2005 @ 11:25 p.m.
finally..my 1st assignment over..man..i din know a book review can take up so much of my time...but thank God i learn something out of tat bk..
many things had happen...throughout the wk throughout the past few mths...but yet i'm not giving up..i'm gonna press on..God is the author n finisher of our faith..the things that he has started he will finish it too...he will surely provide the provision...
I'm still continuing to be strong & courageous
be strong..
Wednesday, Mar. 16, 2005 @ 12:21 a.m.
bad things do happen to good ppl...ask me the question why did god allow all these?? actually i can't realli explain too...but one thing i know for sure...that everything happen for a reason..n that God is still a good God at the end of the dae..n watever we go through during this painful period of time will defintely make u a stronger person..
yes..it hurts alot when u see ya dear one leaving you..but on a lighter note..you know that he is happily in heaven wif our heavenly father..life still needs to go on..n ultimately one dae u will meet ya dear one in heaven..ya dear one in heaven won't wan to see u in the sorrow state for long..they will wan to see u picking yaself up n continue to run the race..
it will take some time for you to get over this pain..give yaself some time...but do not stay in this state forever...u haf to pick yaself up n be strong...jia you..!!..=p
seek after God's presence..
Tuesday, Mar. 15, 2005 @ 4:30 p.m.
jus realise that for the past few entries i haven been typing in a clear state of mind..haha..dun even understand wat i'm blogging..hee..
but anyway..last wkend was an awesome wkend...never felt God's presence so tangible b4..man..now i know wat it realli means to draw down the presence of God..
was reminded in class once again...tat we should always remember tat our primary ministry is to love n serve God...we should always remember the blessor..n not onli go after the blessing..
looking back..how many times haf we been so preoccupied wif all the happenings around us..tat we forgot to spend time in God's presence..onli wif God's presence..den God's power will be able to flow..friends..seek after God's presence..=p
awesome conference..
Saturday, Mar. 12, 2005 @ 5:15 a.m.
why am i still up at such an hour?? hee...i juz reached home...went for one of my friend's brother wake..was there together wif some other friends..time flew by us as we were chatting..haha..to think of it...think we change many many topics..hee..
anyway..benny hinn's meeting was awesome..it was my first time seeing lame walk n blind see..n he carries such a great presense of the holy spirit together wif him...can't wait for tonite's mtg..believe tat it's gonna be better..
gonna catch some slp now b4 i end to the indoor stadium..take care peepz..=p
kohim..kohim..kohim..
Thursday, Mar. 10, 2005 @ 11:49 p.m.
kohim stopped crying!!!..haha..
kohim is my swimming kid...the first lesson i had wif him he was crying non-stop...but thank God..todae he stopped..n was playing sharks wif me..hee..he's so cute..hee...looking forward to my next lesson..hee
went chinatown todae to recee the place wif xiaoting for some event tat we are planning...chinatown seems so foreign to me..haha..
k..shall stop here n head straight to bed..take care ppl
short update...
Saturday, Mar. 05, 2005 @ 10:08 p.m.
had a great wk in sch...
Ps Johnny Foglander was sharing the word of God wif us throughout the wk...man...he is such a wise man..there's so much to draw from him...
one of the many things tat i haf learn during the wk is tis...there's so much of God tat we have to see or experience..thus..no matter where u are wif God..there will surely be something of God tat we haf yet to find out...so do not be satisfied wif where u are wif God..hunger for more of him..
had overnight prayer mtg last...it's great praying together wif my SOT friends...looking forward to more...it can be physically tiring..but it's always worth it when u see things happening...
down wif a cold...gonna take some cold pills n head straight to bed...take care folks...
finally..
Monday, Feb. 28, 2005 @ 11:17 p.m.
finally...after a long long wait...i found my dream phone...samsung D500... finally samsung has a bluetooth phone..been waiting for ages...haha..been eyeing on samsun phones since last yr...but all of them din haf bluetooth...finally...
haha...but the price is pretty steep..$898 for a 2 yr contract..haha..guess it's gonna be another round of waiting..haha..hopefully the price will drop at a faster rate..since 3G phones are out..haha..but on the other hand..samsung phone value takes super long to drop..sob sob..anyone out there who wants to get me a gift..u can consider samsung $898...lol...juz kidding..haha..
k..enough of phone blah-ing..heading off to bed..nitez
clearing up the spider webs...
Saturday, Feb. 26, 2005 @ 11:52 p.m.
wow...i see spider webs around here..haha..it has been a long time since i update..seems like my last dae at caltex is also my last update..haha...
hmm...things been great since my last update..SOT has started...it has been great so far n it's gonna get even better..
started my tuition n swimming assignments..everything is fine..looking forward to the daes ahead...
well...juz a short update...to let u guys know tat i'm fine...there's so much tat i wanna share..but there's so little time..will find some time next wk to update again...so faithful readers...pls tune in...lol..=p
take care peepz..
last 15 mins
Monday, Feb. 07, 2005 @ 5:16 p.m.
15 more mins to knock off..
last 15 mins in caltex house 27 storey..
last 15 mins in this cosy cubical of mine
last entry using caltex's computer..
finally...last time doing a 15 mins countdown to my knock off time
bye peepz in caltx house..=p
happy new yr..=p
Monday, Feb. 07, 2005 @ 10:07 a.m.
wkend juz flew pass me..haha..n todae is my last dae at work!!..haha..suppose to be tml..but decided nt to come in tml..coz i seriously need some time tml to clean up my room..hah..it's still in a total mess..hee..n my mum is naggin abt it..lol...
anyway..service was great...was realli bless by Rev John Bevere...he shared abt fear of God..tat you determine the intimacy relationship wif God..n nt God..You are the one who draw near to Him first..n not the other way round..a sum up of everything would be..drawing near to God..
His thots are bigger den ours n his ways are higher den ours..amazed by how He works..
enjoy ya cny peepz..take care..=p
i wan more of YOU!!..
Friday, Feb. 04, 2005 @ 4:39 p.m.
was out wif shuxian on wednesdae...went to visit one of her member at marina mandarin hotel..tried their durian cake...NICE..!! FABULOUS..!! haha..durian lovers should try tat..hee..
hmmm...was chatting wif her..we tok abt the past..the daes when we were in the same cg..S05,SF1,W43,W67..n we were pondering...how did our cg grow den..how did the revival start? how did we contain the growth?? etc etc..
n it was onli through this conversation..tat the "going back to basics in our christian walk" thot sank right into me..haf been hearing alot tat we gt to go back to basics..but it din sink into me till tat nite...
those growth back den came in coz of the boring basics ..those daes..besides cg n service..other highlights of the wk includes powerhouse n prayer mtgs after sch...members were hungry for the presence of God..the word of God..the mighty move of God..members place God first in every single area of their..on top of tat...back den the members were closely knitted together..we enjoy each other company..no one is in a hurry to rush to any where after cg or service...
as we recall abt those daes...was thinking of my cg..man..it's way different...none of my members visit powerhouse anymore..even i'm guilty of tat..i can't see the hunger in most of my members..as i look at the list of reasons or rather excuses they gave for nt coming for service or cg..i know absolutely where did they place God in their life...n members are nt as closely knitted anymore..sometimes i wonder..is cg n church a social club to them..
are we taking things for granted??...now tat we haf our own building..now tat we are growing..now tat the presence of God is so tangible in every service..are we taking all these for granted?? man..we can't!!..wat God has given to us he can take it away too..we can't be satisfied wif where we are now..we have to yearn for more of him..we can't juz be spectators..everyone of us need to participate in the growth of our church..in bringing in the lost...everyone of us..need to haf back tat personal revival...those encounters wif God..
all of us might haf move on..bt even when we move on..the hunger for more of HIM shouldn't decrease but it ought to increase..can't help but cried tat nite when i was praying..i wan back tat revival..tat hunger..nt onli in my own life..but in W263 n W311 as well..i can't force ppl to love God more..i can't love God on their behalf..but i know i serve a God who hears my cry..tis yr will be a yr of "going back to the basics in my christian walk"..
feasting ...
Monday, Jan. 31, 2005 @ 5:05 p.m.
i'm free..haha..last wk coming to work was like a battle field..but finally...the battle has ended n now the soldiers are feasting..haha
feasting on pizza biscuits frm watson now..haha..n i'm addicted to it..hee..n at the rate i'm going..doubt i will dare to look into the mirror by the time CNY arrives...lol
CNY is approaching..hah...n v'dae too...v dae 2005 gonna be a special dae..coz it's gonna be my 1st dae in SOT..!!..haha..wonder how things gonna be like..but i'm believing tat it's gonna be a great yr ahead..=p
you can gif without loving but u can't love without giving..
Saturday, Jan. 29, 2005 @ 4:08 p.m.
you can give without loving...but u can never love without giving..
tat is why..i can never understand..why ppl can claim tat they love God..but yet refuses to give God their time..energy and finances..isit so hard to give someone whom u love just few hours of time on a saturdae n sundae?? besides if they love him..dun they know God's character?? tat my God is not a taker but a giver...as we give him our time ..energy and finances..he will surely bless us back bountifully.. man...LIARS!! stop claiming tat u love my God when u can't even give him a few hours of ya time..!!
sorry...i'm veri piss wif one member of mine..giving me crap reasons n excuses...even use his gang friend to tok to me..man..he thinks tat i'm afraid?? haha...he's wrong..i'm NOT!..n tat friend of his is so chicken...refuses to pick up my call..onli dare to tok to me through sms..haha..i dun even know whether tat is a self claim gang friend..haha...he may be smsing me using a gang friend identity..haha...how sad is tis man...
haizz..was thinking.."God ..how can u tahan tis sort of ppl??"..reply:"I came to earth to save the SINNERS and not the saved." man...if God can love him...i can too..
p/s: sorry if tis entry of mine offended any christians out there..bt seriously...we can't love without giving..
wat a wk..
Saturday, Jan. 22, 2005 @ 12:02 a.m.
haven been updating..mainly because tis site was down when i wanted to blog..haha..tat's why gt delay till todae to update my blog..
hmmm...hasn't been a great wk..many things had happen..n worse still..it happen all on the same dae..haha..guess all of us will have "a dae tat everything goes wrong" kind of dae..had mine on thurs..haha..n tat dae alone is enough to kill my wk's mood.. but despite of all these..God is still gd n faithful..my wk could haf been worse if i din haf Him by my side..
well..wat happen on thurs? hmm..it's a long story n many things had happen..dun wan to babble abt tat...but it sort of led me to think..wat sort of person am i? n is the way i'm handling things right or wrong?? n all tat has happen sort of showed me tat i'm nt someone who can handle pressure well...man..i thot i could be zai during storms..but i'm nt..nearly lose all my zai-ness on thurs...bt thank God he reminded me to look to him in the midst of all tis...n things are indeed so different after i direct my eyes frm all tat i'm facing to Him...gonna face more pressure tis yr...tis is onli the begining..thank God he reminded me now..rather then when i haf lose all my zai-ness completely...
well..on a lighter note..had cg todae..as usual.. after cg we nua at darrell's place for awhile b4 we get our bums out of his place..afterwhich we went to the coffee shop..n on the way there huiling treated me to tea leaf egg..!!.. tks gal..=p it has been a long long time since i had tat..hee..went to the basketball court after our lunchie..suppose to play basketball/badminton...but we ended up playing wif a kitten!! ..hah..it's so adorable..it's a pretty kitten..n i touched it!! ..haha..huiling nearly brought it home..but in the end..we return it to the mummy..haha..i miss the kitten now..haha..
the one n only kitten i miss
my 4 yrs old cousin is attached !! ..haha..
Wednesday, Jan. 12, 2005 @ 11:37 p.m.
interesting incident..haha...hmm..my cousin is attached!! ..haha...n is my 4 yrs old cousin!!..haha...he started sch last wk..n on the 3rd dae..my mum overheard a gal saeing tat she likes my cousin..n my cousin heard tat...base on the info. provided by my mum..she said my cousin acted dao..haha..but once he reached home..he told my mum tat he likes tat gal too..haha..n frm den on...they were always together in sch..haha..juz tok to him on the phone...i asked whether he has a gf..n he said YES!!...hahaha..man...kids nowadaes...haha..do they know the meaning of like?? haha..maybe they realli do..haha..shall see how far will this go...haha
a tribute to all of my GB mates..
Saturday, Jan. 08, 2005 @ 12:04 a.m.
had fun at steamboat yesterdae...nice place..haa..nice food..hee..
hmm..learn abt a few things yesterdae...firstly...miss song has resign to further her studies..hmm..shocking?? kinda of to me..she was recently promoted..n now she resign..tat's kind of fast ar..wanted to go back fmss since last yr to visit some teachers..n she was in my list..but due to my laziness n clash of timings wif some of my peepz..the visit never happen..n now i won't haf a chance to see her in sch anyway..wonder will i bump into her again..hmm..miss her?? kind of..since she was my leader/captain for the 4 yrs which i haf spend in GB...she played a part in moulding my character..
well..another news..mrs fong is pregnant!!..haha..finally...haha..still remember tat some of us form the guard of honour for her wedding..hah..tat was like 5 or 6 yrs ago?? haha..whenever i tok to some of them abt her...i will always ask..when will she distribute red eggs??..haha..guess in a few mths time ba..haha..she is the first officer who din draw the line between the gals n the officers..n tat makes it easier for us to communicate wif her..it was through the first thailand trip where we saw the crazy side of her..
n lastly..how can i forget abt miss thio..haha...she's another GB officer in fmss..heard she has change for the better..no more pms n her dressing sense has improve..hee..still remember those horrible daes my class went through when she is in her pms mood..hee..those daes whereby she threw away our textbks..those daes whereby she juz stand outside of our class n refuses to come in to teach us..n one incident i will never forget is..she make me run around the whole sch to look for the auntie who holds on to all the classrm door keys..haha..was the monitress den...n there was one fortunate dae..my dearest monitor..justin..decided to go on mc..haha..he was holding on to the back door key while me front door..n since he was absent..my class could onli open the front door..n we all thought tat it's alrite..since we will still be able to enter into the class rm..but miss thio insists tat both doors have to be open..n she won't start lesson till both doors are open..haha...no choice..ran to look for tat auntie..haha..is nt tat i'm still holding hatred against her..bt it's realli through tat incident tat i learn abt submission to ya leaders..sometimes u dun understand why ya leaders ask u to do certain things..it may seems redundant..bt yet..he or she has her reason for doing so..miss thio reason then was for safety..in case if there should be a case of emergency..we could all exit frm the classrm faster..haha..
lame?? haha..bt precaution is better den cure..haha..n at tat pt of time..she thought further n deeper den most of us den..hee..miss thio..a teacher/leader whom i learn most frm..haa..she is more to the back scene kind of person...nt many ppl recognize or even pay attention to wat she does.. but yet..she is veri faithful in all tat she is entrusted wif..be it big or small..n she has a servant heart tat surpasses most of the leaders tat i'm under..man..n i can list down a long list of stuff tat i haf learn frm her ...own her a BIG thank you..guess she will never read tis...but miss thio..THANKS!! u haf been a great teacher/GB officer/leader/friend to me..=p
hahah...wow..sounds like a teacher's dae thank you speech ar..haha..dunno wat gt into me..haha..after tat nite at steamboat..memories of GB juz flooded my mind..was at tiong bahru todae...waiting for church bus..memories of those daes juz fill my mind..man..i miss GB..i miss the company of my GB peepz..i miss the officers...i miss everyone back den...memories will always stay..bt we haf to move on...so true ar..haha..most of us are heading different directions now..bt yet..at least to me lah..those daes are still vivid in my mind..
To: candice, jeslyn, aileen, waichuen, sheena, fiona, dawn, shuhui, joanne, koonern, sharon, baoling...n to e rest in GB 2000 batch..
no idea if any of u will see tis..bt still..haha..thanks guys..for those wonderful 4 yrs back den..those daes were the best daes of my education daes..although there were some misunderstandings n agruments..bt guess those fun joy n laughter tat we shared haf suppressed those hurts n pain..will we cross paths again?? no idea..but..u guys are n will constantly be on my mind n in my prayers..take care peepz..=p
To all my leaders in GB:
Other than the officers..u guys seriously played a great role model in my life n i believe to my batch peepz too..we are known to be the most problematic..haha..but yet u guys never fail to shower us wif ya love..tks for ya patience n love n guidance..=p
To all my juniors in GB:
haven seen u guys for ages..dun even know whether i can recognise u when i meet u..haha..guess i saw one of u..man..she has grown so tall..haha..make me feel so old n short at tat moment of time sia..haha..bt anyway..tks gals..for all ya support in all the stuff tat my batch has planned out..haha..sometimes the things we plan may seem so boring n normal..bt yet u gals make it seem so enjoyable..haha..it takes 2 hands to clap...thanks for lending us ya hands..haha..
haha...sound sentimental? or watever word u may describe it..guess i haf learn something..always take time out to appreciate ppl tat are around u..those ppl tat i haf mention above..are leaders n peepz whom i din realli appreciate when i'm wif them..tis write out may be nothink to some of u readers..bt to me..it contains my greatest appreciation to all of them..it may nt cost anything..n i seriously can't think of anything tat i can do now...all i can do is to express my gratiute the best way i know how..n guess it's through tis blog of mine..nt all of them will read tis..but hopefully some of them will..=p
buffets.. .. ..
Thursday, Jan. 06, 2005 @ 1:04 p.m.
meeting serene n kokseng for dinner later..haa...having steamboat most likely..thus skipping my lunch to save my stomach for later..hee..been eating lots of buffet lately..haha..hmmm...wat's happening to my diet plan?? haha..guess i will postpone it till after chinese new yr..haha..can't resist the temptations frm all those yummy food tat i will face as the festive season draws nearer..hee..
at the post christmas party..
anyway...dunno how did tat pix end up in my inbox..since it's there already i will juz post it up..=p
fullerton lunchie...
Wednesday, Jan. 05, 2005 @ 4:30 p.m.
forgot to restart my blog..haha...since it's a new yr..thus my blog shall haf a new start too..hee..
well...boss treat us to lunch earlier...guess where we went...fullerton!!..man..it was so...hmm...dunno how to describe the feeling...my friends n i were in jeans n t-shirt n we walked into such a posh place..man..do feel alittle weird though..but who cares..i'm nt paying..i need nt fear tat i haf to wash plates later on..haha...
we had buffet over there..n i tried fresh oysters for the first time...yes yes..i'm a mountain turtle..i never like to eat raw food..but tis time..for the sake of the experience n the place i'm in..i tried..haha..it's pretty tasty though..wif the added chilli..haha..maybe tat's why ppl are willing to pay a huge sum of money to eat fresh oysters..haha..tried a number of weird but tasty food todae..had duck salad..n a few other dishes..can't remember the name..haha..wanted to eat the chicken wing..bt i dunno how to eat it using the cutleries..haha..so i gave it a miss..tat explains why i seldom eat chicken wing outside...coz i dun wan to dirty my hands n besides..in such a posh place..u dun expect me to eat a chicken wing using my hands rite ?hee...oya..nt forgettingt the desserts...yummy!!!..haha...had cheese cakes n brownies n etc..man..feel so sinful now..haha...
total bill amt up to $289++..around there...for 6 person...the buffet cost $38++ per person..expensive ar? ..haha..but my boss is rich..so she can afford it..wondering..will i go back there again for lunch??? hmmm...unless i'm rich?? hhaha...
the faithless me sink in again...due to many things..shall nt elaborate on tat..was wondering wat's in store for me n if i can ever finish the race..those dreams tat He place in me are so big..n it requires so much..i began to be fearful..uncertain abt many things..was even thinking of backing-out..i started to become one of those who said,"let me see wat's over the other side first b4 i agree on crossing over the line.." bt thank God for his constant encouragement...God speaks in a special way tat u never expect..haha..was reading abt the story on Abraham..he was childless..n yet God gave him a promise tat his descendants would be the number of stars in sky n the dust on earth...layman terms...many many many descendants...bt at tat pt of time..he was still childless..bt yet..he held on to the promise God has made..although he doesn't know how it's gonna happen..but yet he held on to the promise..he crossed the line..even when he doesn't know wat's on the other side..i may nt know wat's on the other side..bt i know if i hold on tightly to God's words n promises..everything gonna be alrite...yep...nt gonna let tat faithless me prevail..i'm gonna stand even stronger upon the word of God..
knocking off time..ciaoz..
